I am in the shittiest fucking mood ever and all i want to do is cry, sleep, punch things, and relapse. I fucking hate being so bitchy and i dont know why it happens. I have no idea. But it’s awful. I want you to come over but i don’t want to be hurt by you again. You’re being super nice to me now but that’s what happened right before you blew me off for the last month and a half of school. I don’t want that to happen again. It sucked. And i have also realized that when i’m with you, it makes me want to relapse because i never want you to stop caring about me. And that makes me sound like an attention seeking bitch but its true. I know you care and i don’t want to lose that. But whatever. I’m not gonna be an attention whore and relapse to keep you around. If you wanna use me and leave me then fine, you wouldn’t be the first person. But i sure hope you don’t.